Unfortunately, I didn't get to take any photos with my classmates after school on the last day of school because I had to brainstorm for ideas for the upcoming CCA camp with the other Secondary 3s but that's okay cause we still have extended curriculum starting today and I still get to see my classmates till next week.
For many of the sec 3s, next year will be our graduating year and we will go on our separate ways and it's hard to think about it because most of us would have spend a full 10 years in Fairfield and when you spend such a long time at a place or with a certain group of people it's hard to go on your separate ways; all the things that you've been through as a class or as a school together in the past 10 years will just be a small part of all the things you will be telling your children about later in your life. I'm not sure whether I'm looking too far but all I know is that when you feel old in the future, you will want to relieve all these memories again; the time where guys in your class played with fire in the school or when my girls just ditch PE and hang out at the CCA block and when you tell your kids about all these memories, they will probably just brush it off and not understand, just like when I didn't use to get it when my mum talk about her school years and it will be the same again with our own kids. I know graduation is a year away but we're all going to spend most of our time prepping for our O levels and won't have the time to stop and think about it; about leaving Fairfield, about leaving and going our different ways; and from then on, most of us will just keep going on, cause life doesn't stop for us (as cliché as it sounds, it is true), most of us will go on to Poly, or Junior College or ITE, then after another short 4 years or education at most, we will all be released into the adult world, were we can't have a lot of fun anymore or be a kid anymore and it is not that far away; I'm 20 in 5 years time and you may say, 5 years isn't short but that was what I thought when I came into secondary school; I thought that 4 years was a long time but it just seemed like yesterday when I stepped into this school looking like a baby and now I'm ending my third years and going on to my fourth very very soon. And I hate that I have to think about graduation because it is going to happen and I don't want it, I don't want to step into the real world, I want to stretch time as long as possible and spend them with all my friends until the day we graduate, until the day we admit that youth isn't forever and go to different schools after a long 10 years. But until the day all speck of youth is gone within me, whether physically or spiritually, I will try to experience everything and anything I can before I start working full time or turn old and do crazy crazy stuff and then I will have a lot more to talk about when I'm older and I'll also take many many many pictures so I can show my family in the future that I was once young, that I was once rebellious, that I once made many many many mistakes and regretted it; but like me when I was listening to the old stories of my grandparents once, they will never fully understand it cause when they were born, we were already old and they will forever see us as old people. I'm not sure if it's just me being sentimental but I know that this is true.
We will all grow old one day and nothing can stop it; even if some sort of medicine is produced that could slow down aging in a good 50 years time, we will still be old, on the inside. But what I know is that I want to remember being young; doing crazy things with my best pals, going through all the things I had gone through with my classmates, making everything seem like a big deal and the problems I faced that wasn't much to me now than it was to me 20 years ago, something like a simple friendship problem or the fact that I had failed a test really badly because none of this will be even one fifth as stress as the problems I'll face in the future.
I want to remember being young. I'll take loads of pictures, write down stuff I've gone through and keep them safe and cry about it when I review all these stuff again when I'm older cause I'm just that sensitive and emotional.
Hahah, well, I started this post wanting to talk about my "last day" of school this year but I guess I went on too far, but that's okay. Anyway, after the brainstorming I've done with my CCA mates, Marie and Sheena came over to hang around and we just talk and watched stupid videos and as much as I love the Internet, I do not want to tell my kids in the future that I spent all my teen years on tumblr and youtube;
I want to tell them about the adventure I had, and I'm going to work to it from now and limit the amount of time I spend on the Internet. Well, I guess I'm just going to stop here :)
Have a great life :)
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